WhenTheCold Pounds on the door

小寒 [13] / [20]

"I don't deny that I had a relationship with him. It's total nonsense, I know. But having relations doesn't mean that I LOVE him. It was nothing, and there was no feeling. He and I met in the park a few months ago. You know, I used to go to the park alone for walking when you were on duty. We met several times, and got to know each other. He said he was an orphan, and had a girlfriend. But he was not used to having sex with her, because he didn't have any experience.

We got close to each other, and I suggested to him that I could give him a lesson if he wanted, just as a joke. We had fun with that theme, and one thing led to another, and we practiced for real. Just practice for his love life, that's all! I don't love him.

And you were extremely busy, even on days off. I told you several times and attempted to make love with you almost every night, but you declined me because you were too tired. What could I do? I have my desires too. Don't you think it's so cruel to just terminate our relationship without even talking about it or trying to fix it?

You've been my family since my parents went to jail after you investigated them when I was a teenager. It's been 3 years! You can't quit me like this, not for just seeing one dreadful scene!"

After listening in dumbfounded silence as she ranted on, he found his tongue.

"Relationship? Practice? you fucked him Violet, YOU FUCKED HIM!"

he thundered.

"I don't care why you did it, or about what you think I owe you. You threw away those 3 years, not me."

His anger made him forget that Sarah was there, right next to him, listening to all of this, and it grew hotter than ever. Given Violet's expression, his reply wasn't what she was expecting. She yelled at the top of her lungs.

"Oh, that's what you care most about, is it? You're pissed off because I gave him my body, not my heart, aren't you? You never cared that my heart is still with you. You just focus on my body and the fact that you can't have exclusive use of it. You selfish bastard! When have you ever considered me, or how I feel? You've never even tried to hear me out at all, how I felt without you, how lonely I was when you were balls deep in your noble job."