Plan A? Plan B?

I can't focus on what I have to do.

Cause I'm not a salaried worker,

it directly leads to financial loss.

This situation sometimes makes me

miss my days as an worker who can get the money every month.

I know that I never want to found a job,

and It is also impossible to get a job.

So I have to do my best for my business.

But I haven't been able to do that for a long time

I'm very embarrassed, but at the same time,

I seem to have resigned myself.

Cause embarrassed, so resigned?

or 

Cause resigned so embarrassed?

I don't know which one right...

But the fact is, regardless of their priority,

these two things are my current state.

Most of the day, I sat at a desk to work.

But most of that time, I was just absent-minded

Every day, I just need to pretend to do something

for my relief that "I did something"

it is meaningless.

But now... I can't have many plans...