Take Heart!
John 16:25-33
25 “Though I have been speaking figuratively, a time is coming when I will no longer use this kind of language but will tell you plainly about my Father. 26 In that day you will ask in my name. I am not saying that I will ask the Father on your behalf. 27 No, the Father himself loves you because you have loved me and have believed that I came from God. 28 I came from the Father and entered the world; now I am leaving the world and going back to the Father.”
29 Then Jesus’ disciples said, “Now you are speaking clearly and without figures of speech. 30 Now we can see that you know all things and that you do not even need to have anyone ask you questions. This makes us believe that you came from God.”
31 “Do you now believe?” Jesus replied. 32 “A time is coming and in fact has come when you will be scattered, each to your own home. You will leave me all alone. Yet I am not alone, for my Father is with me. 33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
Human itself is born alone and feels lonely oftentimes, though we have lived together. In my case, I have lived with my parents and my 4 brothers, including some workers in my house, as my mom was a dressmaker. However, I had these kinds of feeling and emotion deep inside my heart from my young age, but actually I didn't feel lonely. Strangely to say, I could feel the Father was with me, somewhere and anytime. So I eagerly wanted to see Him by my eyes, but I couldn't do until the age of 20.
Luckily, I could see Him through the Holy Spirit at age 21, I mean, that I saw Jesus like a movie panorama, who made me know for sure that God had been with me all the time as I had felt until that moment. That experience made me aware of God's presence and my identity as a child of God, the Creator, who knew and loved me so much and took good care of me until that time.
I live in the flesh, so I often feel the weakness and foolishness of mine, and my mind and heart is like a pot that is easy to be broken. But as Jesus said, I could go through all the trouble in life, trusting in God, who gave me the way out of it, or who gave me wisdom to avoid it or, who gave me courage, so I could face it. I have not experienced the same pain or sufferings that disciples could have done at that time, but I could say that living as a Christian, a daughter, a mom of two children, and a teacher of students, and a wife of a man, was not an easy life.
Thankfully, I could have heart and overcome the world until now, as God was with me. It's not because of my power or courage or wisdom, but it's all from God and the trust in Him. I believed that God was with me, and I believe that God is with me, and I would believe that God is to be with me even in the place of my death. Therefore, I fear nothing, including death. Of course, I have no idea of what death is, but I bet that I would trust in Him and be with Him even at the moment, and I would like to call the time like a feast, when I could see Him face to face. Hallelujah!
