MLD Weekly Reflection 7
“Rememberance”
신명기 8:11-18
Be careful that you do not forget the LORD your God, failing to observe his commands, his laws and his decrees that I am giving you this day. Otherwise, when you eat and are satisfied, when you build fine houses and settle down, and when your herds and flocks grow large and your silver and gold increase and all you have is multiplied, then your heart will become proud and you will forget the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery. He led you through the vast and dreadful desert, that thirsty and waterless land, with its venomous snakes and scorpions. He brought you water out of hard rock. He gave you manna to eat in the desert, something your fathers had never known, to humble and to test you so that in the end it might go well with you. You may say to yourself, "My power and the strength of my hands have produced this wealth for me." But remember the LORD your God, for it is he who gives you the ability to produce wealth, and so confirms his covenant, which he swore to your forefathers, as it is today.
Spiritual Leadership
‘practicing faith’
Everyone has difficulty to walk in faith.
Baby needs to walk one by one, but when baby grew up as a child, the child could run in the field without any concern about how can I walk or not. And I feel I challenged to practice faith. Cause faith , for me, this is most difficult thing in this world. This is we can not see but we can see afterwards. Usually when I was in teenager, I thought believe something is easiest one for me, cause sounds simple and it’s working inside of our hearts not outside of action. But I didn’t recognised that faith eventually comes with actions. These I feel the faith is really strong and 궁극적인 사건 in our life journey. Cause the faith leads to unfulfilled field in the mystery area of society, area of family, area of life, area of community. The faith brings miracle to see with boldness heart even we see only barren. We see the flowers even though we see the snow in a freezing outside. We are going out to see the sun , shining shining bright sun even though rain and storm came and we are strucked by a tidal wave because God tells us to go to see the sun. but how we take this faith like David’s as Peter mentioned?
god guide He had a god-connection
He had intimacy-based courage-
he persevere to the end.
And what is ultimately important thing happened to me is that all the flow from the message on thursday to study bible ‘habakkuk’. And the message that Peter warren shared about tragic accident. And I had question, how God call people ‘the righteousness’ because of faith. Even the situation is same as tragic, but inside of heart changed from complaint to prayer and praise. But God see people who has faith as the righteous. And I amazed that how God trade people’s faith to righteous which is God’s character, not from us. And amazed that how faith is difficult and but also undeniably important to our lives. This is the one God test us as a gold, this is the one God really ask to us to have more that nothing else.
Habakkuk2:4
“Behold, his soul is puffed up; it is not upright within him,
but the righteous shall live by his faith.
Romans 1:17
For in it the righteousness of God is revealed from faith for faith,[a] as it is written, “The righteous shall live by faith.”
Galatians 3:11
Now it is evident that no one is justified before God by the law, for “The righteous shall live by faith.”
Hebrews 10:38
but my righteous one shall live by faith,
and if he shrinks back,
my soul has no pleasure in him.”
these days, I didn’t open my heart toward people. I am scared to be rejected, I just had distance with people. Even it doesn’t look I am not open to people, I had just a small conversation without engaging. And thursday night, I had a moment to confront what I am afraid of. It is that I hate to say good bye and hate to keep adjust new relationship in every quarter. And I am scared that even I make an effort to have deep relationship, I should say good bye and expect the other moment to meet again that even it could not come. And it is the time that such a deep sadness came to my mind and hard to confront I had huge fear to lose people. And I open my heart to tong and Kendra and endrik to share about this. They are so open to hear and I really had relaxing. these days I get more grace from others than give more. More I feel weak more I could feel God works. The faith tested by many situation, the faith become more broad in every area.
I enjoyed to talk some people in street. And I met someone crumple that he had a accident to fall at an unstable flat. And we could pray for him. i prayed for his knee and healing over his legs. He was open to hear prayer and he was gracious to share his accident. I still hope I can meet him next Wednesday.
During ministry involvement, I feel I am unworthy, I think I am keep fighting that I am needed in this area. Even I recognised this is precious work for me, but I just wonder I am just the person that everyone could replace. These days I am figuring out my identity in God and distinguish lies and truth, remembering what God called me to be. I think I am facing huge fight now. And this is such a moment that I could test my faith and see His character over my life. so I sense that I could see more growth after this season.
