Giving Table SE2 Day 8
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Sometimes inspiration toward that thing that makes you come alive follows after you so hard and so loud that you look around to see how everyone else is reacting to this most obvious explosion of creativity happening right here in this room. It is bright and tangible and full. But other times, it speaks of future, not-yet things to come. It whispers for you to prepare so that it isn’t so surprising when the story shows up one day, demanding you to tell it or to live it, ready or not. The Spirit of the living, loving God speaks into our lives and offers us shadows of things to come, blurry and unclear. But no less real.
And so when you hear the whispers, One day, there will be fiction. Children. Teaching. Building. Travel. Love. Writing…don’t ignore them. It doesn’t mean that things will turn out exactly as you think. They won’t But I do believe God fully provides for us in the present while at the same time faintly hints about the future. And sometimes, as he moves in us and around us in the moments of our day, he nudges us in whispers and desire toward something he has for us later.
<A Million Little Ways> Emily P. Freeman p66
It goes like this. The first stage: Random Words. Out of blue, certain words pop up in my head. They come after me persistently while washing dishes, getting children ready for the morning, walking, cooking, and working. It’s as if they are determined to become ghosts and follow my every move.
And the second stage happens: Reminded conversations. Certain conversations I had with people in the past are reminded and repeated in my head. And strangely enough, those conversations somehow mingle together with the words. More strangely, once thought to be random words are no longer random. They start to form themselves into a purposeful community. They no longer exist in words but in action.
Then the third stage kicks in: Imagination and Battle. I start to picture every small and big detail of the imaginary meeting that goes along with the words, the conversations, and the people. And it’s this phase when I go thorugh the most intense battle as I fight fiercely to find answers to the questions I fear to face: Is this meeting really necessary? Why is this have to be you and now? What if no one wants to participate in the meeting?
Ever since I opened the very first English bookclub in 2017, I’ve walked this cycle of thought-developing process, stumbled, fallen and walked again. If it hand’t been for God who gently nudged my exceedingly passive personality with His light to the fourth stage of commitment, we would have never happened.
God never forgets. He remembers all my desires, prayers and whispers. As he has already decided to start work in my life, he nudges me to remind the dreams and to keep walking wit him. - D.
I like Ashley's note today very much because when thinking of 'nudge', all I could think of is nudge in terms of behavioral economics. I used to ignore random thoughts and feelings inside me, but after reading today's article, I think I need to look at and listen to them more closely so that I can get fully nudged! - C.
When I was introduced to the group Eternal Learner, the former group of Pan Kyo Chak Bang, I was into this sentence, "Continually growing." The spirituality of learning was taught to me from the church's sermon. All of these flow nudged me into reading books and writing. It was the holy spirit working in my life to let me into these activities till today what I'm doing in Giving Table. In this journey, yes, I grew and start to write and see who I am and experiencing so much joy in the process. I want to always remember that I am an Eternal Learner. - G.
보배합에서는 판교책방의 북 펀딩 서클인 북 커뮤니티, 기빙 테이블이 진행되고 있습니다.
보배합지기 여름나무 Ashley와 테이블 멤버가 함께 크리스천 여성작가인 에밀리 프리먼의 <A Million Little Ways>를 발췌하여 읽고, 매일의 미션 단어로 짧은 글을 영작하며 10일을 보냅니다.
더 알기 원하시면 보배합과 판교책방의 공간에 찾아와주세요.
보배합 기빙 테이블 : https://bobaehap.com/givingtable
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