After reading Twilight

more like a diary...

  I'm writing this book journal now in the cafe. You see, by the time I finish this book, I don't think I will be able to write about it. I made up my mind that  I will study English reading using Twilight Saga series. I love Twilight series. Bella is a round character who is quite moody. I like her because she is the protagonist but if she was real, she might have suffered a lot. I don't believe in vampires but I love the cullens. They are kind and try to get along with humans. They changed because of their ideology and each has different motives controlling their thirst against humans. The book hover between times of human history which makes the story more interesting. Curiosity and fear, which is stronger? It may be different for each individual, but this concern is reflected in the story and my mind. Bella's curiosity about Edward, and vampires is dangerous. 

    But it also leads to a whole new world of view. That world is dangerous but beautiful. Edward attracts Bella and Bella is sure about her intuition. She is sure that she wants to set her feet into Edward's world, further more, the world of vampires. Was the trigger of her curiosity is only about Edward? If it was me, Will I be able to step into a world which is unknown and full of insecurity? Well, I guess sometimes in life, it is not bad to act like Bella. Because thats how the story contines, and that's why wh can follow Bella's traks and explore the fantasy and romance of Bella and Edward. Like thatre is an old saying, "Nothing comes from nothing." And I know it's painful to try something new and make numerous mistakes also mending  them at the same time. But so is Bella. She feels pain. But she keeps going. The curiosity and immersion helps her. She keeps researching about vampires and talks with Edward. 

   'The dark Edward in my dream last night was a reflection only of my fear of the word Jacob had spoken, and not Edward himself.' Same to me, my concerns and fears about the uncertainty of my future is created by words of many people and the inner voice of mine. Which means, I can't let my judgement waver because of delusion that is created in my mind. Bella had no prejudice against Edward and she had pure curiosity and wonder. I think that's the type of attitude I shold have about my life. I'm happy to be alive hoping that I can have remarkable adventures through my next four years of university and more. Fear is delusion. And the only way to find out that fact is just jumping into it!!