Abused father made it fun

John Wayne Gacy, the serial killer

https://youtu.be/f9YB8n3flLM?si=YaFolgfm1mC9J0od

He seemed to do drugs for so long, it made him stuck in some troubles related in his brain. I assumed that his interviews were not that rational and systemic. He might exaggerate what he had done and sometimes talked too much about something less realted in his done. Also his statement might be unstable. Of course, he knew what he had done to victimes, but he didn't take their pain seriously.

He seemed to believe that "There were such a fun." This kind of distortion has usually happend to drug addict. He seemed not to understand usual communication, and he already knew his problem inside, so he was obsessed with power.

He didn't graduate the high school, however, his achievement including graduating the university and even marriage was such a great, and it could make him use drugs. A lot of drug addict tend to start for achieving such as a good looking muscle (related in steroid), such a good score (related in speed), such a good music (related in cocaine or heroin) and such a good social relationship. Some of them tend to start this kind of drug for just pain relief. Anyway, he seemed to say like a drug addict.

And the reasons why he was obsessed with young boys were "it was easy to make fun." He knew gay boys needed shelters because family tended to throw away. He knew that no one would find gay boys's disappear so he also knew that his killing realted in gay boys didn't matter to society. And he had learned how gay boys made fun, I can't assume what fun meant for him, anyway, he adapted this path.

I assume that his father could say kind of "fun" after beating and insulting him. Or from his mother. Like "I love you my son, I hit you but it was not that serious, you must take it fun for being a strong man. Strong man never cry", kind of way. Some father tend to abuse their childeren (sometimes including his wife), after, they become nice and quiet with (gentle) smile. It can make them get confused with taking many serious situations. So sometimes abused childeren tend to think that "it wasn't insulting but nothing."

And I think that his sexual desire was not that mature and at the same time his something seemed to be destoryed (until now I can't know). I don't think that homosexual relationship has some issues but his this kind of attraction seemed not to be normal in homosexual ways.