Inner peace for myself

생각의 정리

This is my English essay on the brunch platform. Rather than Korean, sometimes It's much easier to express inner thinking with a few words but I'm not sure my words and English grammar are correct. If someone who would see my writing don't want to translate, I could reveal my real feelings so that language is useful to conceal a mind. whether spells are wrong or not, writing is helpful.

As a few of my friends already know, I'm a passionate woman who likes works and life and also find meaning of life by helping people who need advice or educational support. Helping others makes me feel living a life is valuable as I am watching their better choice for themselves. Nevertheless, I already knew that life is a vacant bottle because of the death no matter how I try to work hard or get the fame etc. Nobody expand life span though there are so many medicines to cure because everything are designated to flow from the highest energy to lowest one when we are getting older.

Even after my grandmother gone, I didn't know well of fear comming from persistent physical symptoms. The thing that I only know after her death is that take caring my family is the most important thing in my whole life until my parents don't exsist near me someday. That makes me feel sad and unstable ocassionally.

In every world, there are a bunch of desires like fame, money, wealth, woman or man. Until 28, I also these things are crucial so I really work and study hard to become a professional in the specific field. But now, sometimes I don't find the real reason why I have to earn money or develope myself still. But I don't like remaining the same and boring thinking without any effort by myself. Staying in a dark room never open the next door. So, the method of going out of the dark room is just sustaining daily life with postivie thinking and take a time with family members having a lunch. Keeping self development and experience new things are also helpful to lessen negative mind. Expressing and wrinting are the best mechanism to organize confused mind too. I just hope my family stay healthy and be happy until we are together.