Dear God

I've been trying awful hard to make you proud of me But it seems The harder that I try the harder it becomes

And I feel like giving up Most of the time

Dear God I've been chasing their approval and it's killing me And I know the more I to try to prove or the less I have to show

And I'm stuck inside my head Most of the time

But If I pray a little harder If I follow all the rules I wonder could I ever be enough

Cause I try and I try just to fall back down again and I ask myself why Do I try to chase the wind I should lean into the mystery

Maybe hope is found in a melody so I wanna try again

I'm gonna try again

Dear child

I hope you know how much I love you and I'm proud of you

And please believe The thoughts I have for you will never change or fade away

When you felt like giving up I never did

Cause I'm not scared of imperfections or the questions in your head

Just know that you have always been enough

Cause you tried and you tried and I saw you wrestle with every how every why

I was right there listening so just fall into the mystery and I'll meet you in the melody try just to try again

so child would you try again

my child you can love again

올해의 보물 중 하나.

올초부터 어쩜 이렇게 무식하고 용감하게 앞만 보고 달려왔을까 돌이켜보니 나의 런던 생활 그 자체를 꾸려준 것 같은 곡.

낯선 땅에서 든든한 마음을 선사해 준 이 가사를 곱씹을수록 여전히 마음이 몽글해진다. 마치 영화의 한 장면들이 스치듯 지난날의 시간들을 떠올려주는 보물을 발견한 것만 같다.

하고 싶은 말이 많을수록 아끼게 되고 남겨두는 것을 감당하기 어려웠던 한 해였지만 놀라움과 감사함의 연속이었던 2023년이었다.

2024년에는 쌓아두지 않고 틈틈이 남길 수 있는 꾸준한 내가 되었으면