Light, prolonged

VII 春分 [1] / [33]

Cynthia was awakened by his movement right next to her. She noticed Alexander's expression, drawn with agony. She got up, and sat leaning on the back of the bed.

"Are you alright? What's wrong?”

she asked.

Alexander stared at her worrying eyes without a word for awhile. It was just past 3 in the morning. He wanted to sleep again, but it didn't seem like he could fall asleep. The dream was still too vivid to ignore.

After a long hesitation, he began to tell her about the dream he just had. Cynthia quietly listened to his story in the deep darkness of dawn. He felt himself gradually feeling more at peace when he spoke to her.

"That Sarah still has a grave affect on you,”

she said when he finished the story.

"It seems like her memory is deeply carved in my subconsciousness somewhere."

He closed his eyes. The memories seemingly couldn't be erased no matter how desperately he wanted it. He felt her touch his hair with her hand.

"I don't want you taken away from me by some powerless memory,"

she said.

"I'll carve myself into you much more deeply and vividly than her."

He opened his eyes. Cynthia was taking her nightgown off. Some thought brushed against his head.

"Have you known that I had relations with that woman?"

He asked. He'd never told her that he slept with Sarah. Did she already know anyway?

"I did. John told me, as soon as he heard you at the first."

Now she was wearing nothing. He could see her silhouette dimly in the dark.

"Oh, I didn't want to let you know that, damn it . . . "

He covered his eyes with embarrassment.

"I don't care how many times you slept with that bitch. I want to make you to forget her."

She whispered while she got on top of him, kissing him on the mouth. And she moved down and down. Despite the thought of Sarah and exhaustion, he noticed his erection growing harder in spite of himself. Her soft hand grabbed him gently. He closed his eyes and took a breath. Her tougue reached his tip. She started to lick it lightly, like trying to preserve a lollipop as long as possible.