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by 한상훈 Mar 21. 2024

Journey

2024. 3. 21.

The Approaching Night by Philip Wesley


I have 190 days to succeed in the 'Build 10 million dollar-value company challenge'. 


I always believe that my life has a purpose. That could be a metaphysical concept, but I've believed it for a long time. There's been a lot of conversation with Lady Wisdom. Whenever I fell into trouble, she saved me several times. However, since I ran the company FLEXWEB, I never asked her for wisdom. Just floating around nearby. With a vague purpose of life and company. There was a stupid young man who had no idea how to live life, and he just followed the path in his near sight. 



He didn't have eyes for running the company. Maybe he was too exhausted to sustain a stressful life. The client had made troubles. Employees made trouble. Reality showed him meaningless stuff to deceive judgments. Pool, pathetic CEO. He lost everything he made. His entire effort has gone to vain. What a pathetic human! What a fate he faces! 


Someone can say, "You did well." 


No. I just failed too many times, and I don't even realize what pain is. It's my new normal when I hear the most horrible news that I've ever heard before. It's my new routine. I just believe in a life of purpose, then throw out my entire life for that, even though I couldn't expect anything in the future. 



There's a few days left until the beginning of business. We have been struggling to implement those business models. Put the energy in a bottle, and then it's time to drink for the show. On the pressure, on the high level of stress, it's normal life for entrepreneurs who want to make a huge company in this world. I'm prepared. Last 30 years of journey. 


Failures. 


Frustrations. 


Conflicts. 


What a sad movie until this moment! 


But I'm convinced. I have a belief. I can make it better than anyone. We can make it better than any other company in the world. I don't believe myself. I believe in the people on this team, and I believe in the in the value of what we tried to do. 


I have enough time to accomplish what we believe. And I'll never fail again for the people who believe me. I'll never fail anymore.

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