Anni,아니
Second, the whole ocean in one drop
Hi girl.
How have you been up to?
I've watched entertainment show, which is korea one. Five guys travel cities in korea, having a chat about everything - history, politics, food and life in this TV program. They are novelist, ex-Minister, brain-scientist, food critics and musician. The oldest guy is probably over 60 years old, and the youngest one is also over 40 years old. No matter how old they are, OMG, all of them are very attractive.(sometimes, sexy.)
They have talent to articulate thier thought, and I'd like to acquire their intelligence and wisdom. When they have conversations, they respectively speak out their own unique ideas as well as don't ignore other's views. They live in the same world like us, but look like they're far from mundane life with outstanding creativity.
Anni, both of us are quite eager to live a creative life. Can I get older like those guys who still have fresh affection for the world?
We read 'Big magic' together. I remember that day you introduce me this book. You were enthusiastically empowered by her, Elizabeth Gilbert. I got impressed by you, in turn. You said you'll take photos not for others but for your fun. You said about the lady who having heaps of tattoos decorating her body for her own fun as she is temporary existance.
When I read it, I was thrilled. I almost felt like I was liberated from self-made inner prison.
Sometimes although it is the fact that I already recognize, it takes time to get actual understanding of the meaning of that fact and personalize that, like "Having fun for yourself without disguising."
While I was there in Auckland during 6 months, I was oppressed with improving my English. But I'm still struggle to get along with this language which you said you felt that it's your language.(Korean might be your language too! You're perfect when you say, 'Gomawe, Gayoung a.' )
After I read 'Big magic', I've tried to change my mindset from expecting to be taken care of to confirming to take care of what I love. I've done my best to accept my shitty-smelly sandwiches definitely coming with all my sweet dreams.
But, I normally end up shouting or crying with my anger when I confront that obstacle.
I'm reminding myself of these 2 words recently.
'Calm down.'
'Ok, Step by step.'
You know, I'll keep going.
I mean I'm totally find with this mess and imperfection.
AlI I want to say is, I won't give up all my efforts to be a better person for my fun.
I cooked Pad thai last night. I promised that i'll cook Pad thai for you in Auckland and didn't make it. Don't be mad. I'll even be better about Pad thai and cook for you one day when we meet later.
See you, the whole ocean in one drop.
