Farewell, Our Little Comforter

R.I.P.

Goodbye, our little comforter

Today we said goodbye to you, and I cried so much.

This kind of pain never becomes familiar to me.

Even though I knew your life might only be two years,

choosing you as a birthday gift

was one of the best choices I ever made.

You were so small—

so tiny and gentle that you could not even fill my little hand.

When you curled up, you became even smaller,

so fragile, so pitiful to see.

Yet such a tiny being

has left such a great hole in my heart.

Even if you had been as small as an ant,

the mountain of love you gave me

is something I will never forget.

My tears flow through the night,

and my heart is still heavy and numb.

The quiet and steady love

that I could not always give,

you gave to my family.

Though you made almost no sound,

you became a great shelter for us

and gently comforted our hearts.

I did not know

that the place you leave behind

would hurt this much.

The tears I once cried for family who passed away

now fall again for you.

Thank you, truly, for being part of our lives.

On this sleepless night,

in the moonlight beyond the window,

I see the little place where you rest—

your small cover, held down by two bricks.

That place now lies

in the centre of my heart,

and the tears will not stop.

You spent more days sleeping curled up

than days awake.

And there were more days

when we simply knew you were beside us

than days when we truly looked at you.

Yet with that tiny body,

you loved all of us.

It hurts so much.

This numb heart aches deeply.

Calling your name through tears,

we made a small coffin,

no bigger than our hands.

We placed flowers beside you,

wrote a few words for you,

and gently closed the lid.

We covered you with earth.

And we prayed.

Thank you for coming into our lives.

We love you.

You were a blessing to our family,

our beloved hamster.

Whenever our hearts were troubled

and we could not give each other enough love,

you quietly helped us.

Without a word,

you softened the sharp edges between us

and brought peace to our home.

Today we buried you.

As I comforted everyone else,

I held back my tears.

Now, with everyone asleep,

I sit alone with my grief.

I love you.

Sleep well.

We will meet again someday.

Goodbye my little loved one

*this is my own painting*