029. My Three Goals for 2024
The first English essay in the shool
Where am I? That was the constant question I had last year. After getting married and having a baby, my life has changed totally. I have had two lives between Korea and the U.S. in the last three years, and having a baby has made me focus on her a lot. Putting me aside was strange because I was a very self-centered person before. Every day, I seemed to walk in a strange, foggy way. I needed to bring something to make my road clear. That is a good routine, only for me. That’s why I set three goals this year to make me feel healthy and happy.
The first goal I want to achieve is to exercise. I will walk as much as I can every day. Since I have lived in the States, it is not easy to walk every day because I have to ride a car wherever I go. However, I am used to arranging my thoughts and releasing heavy feelings by walking. So undoubtedly, I have to bring this back into my life again. Along with this, I am going to go swimming at least twice a week. Getting into water converts my feelings in a good way and raises my strength, too. I know it is cliché, but we cannot deny that a healthy body affects a healthy mind. I will manage my body and mind by working out.
For my next goal, I plan to read steadily. Reading was one of my favorite hobbies for a long time, but I did not read enough books last year. Through reading, I can connect with new knowledge. In addition, I can empathize with characters I have never met before. In other words, it helps me to understand the world around me. I will encourage myself to read at least two books every month. This year, I would like to focus on classic literature, which I have postponed for the last few years.
My last goal is to continue trying to stand up to my fear every moment. Because life in the U.S. was perfectly new to me and I got scared, I have relied on my husband so much to avoid some uncomfortable situations. But I feel it is time to move on. I am pushing myself to get a driver’s license even though I am afraid of driving. If I overcome it, it will give me the freedom to go anywhere. Also, by practicing English speaking more in the ESOL class and in my daily life, I would like to confront my fear of communicating here in the States. I will make many mistakes so that I can improve my English. Dependency never tells us to be free. I want to allow myself to be independent and brave.
The change brought about by my marriage and my daughter is a gift. Wherever I am, I am still me. And I can expand myself by facing new circumstances as well. Being able to grow is a blessing. Even though I feel lost my way again, I will be alright because I have a compass, which has three directions I can take. I do believe that my three little steps make my life satisfying, fulfilling, and confident. Moreover, I truly hope my effort keeps going and brings happiness to me and the people I love at the end of this year.
