미팅 10분 전 갑자기 기록하고 싶어서..

Working from home on Friday, just 10 minutes before my meeting..

Although I don't have any plans for today, I cannot avoid to get excited anyway on Friday.

Maybe that is the reason (as I am on the good mood),

I just realized the reason why I have not put any effort while my life here is so dry, lonely and desolate.

It was just because I closed my mind to here, and tried so hard not to give my heart.

That was the reason why I don't even unpack my things from suitcases, and even extended the stay at the hotel. It might also explain why I even kept away from the street foods that I used to love and went to the place for foreigners.

I am a person who wants happy moments everyday. I can not sacrifice even one day for the sake of other purpose. I value my morning coffee and time for myself so much more than any other things. I always try to be the most generous and nicest to myself. But for some reason, I didn't allow me to enjoy the life here. I was closed so much and I didn't consider my life here as a life.

I have to admit there is nothing to do with this place. It is about me. I have so much love inside, and always had people and things around me that I could give my heart. Here, I intentionally have not made anything that I can give love. Now I know that was why I felt so lethargic.

But tomorrow, I am going to view my potential houses. I won't live anymore in this temporary hotel. I will water the plants, clean the house, cook for myself and others and embrace where I am now. I will try to bring my love here.