멍..걸으면서 나를 마주해보자
[영화를 보고 나서] Walk with me..나를 만나는 길 틱낫한
[3년 전 나온 영화지만, 작년 내가 어둠에서 허우적거리고 있을때 나에게 위안을 준 목소리. 네이버 블로거에 올렸었지만 스팸 댓글을 지우며 글도 날아가버려, 다시 쓰는 김에 나의 브런치에 새로 남겨본다]
장재열 작가가 추천해준 영화
베네딕트 컴베비치의 목소리가 너무 잘 들어온다
마음이 시끄러울 때 꼭 다시 보고 싶은 영화다
여운이 강한 영화다
내 마음이 들어온 문장들
Walk with me...I know what it is to get angry,
and I know the pleasure of being praised.
I'm often on the verge of tears or laughter.
But beneath all these emotions,
what else is there?
How can I touch it?
If there isn't anything
why would I be so certain that there is?
내 안의 수 많은 실체가 없는 자아들
Suffering is the compost.
The food of awakening.
You have to look for enlightenment in the suffering.
This is why we have the expression
"Suffering is enlightenment."
고통은 깨달음이다
At first, it seemed like a passing cloud.
But after several hours, I begin to feel my body turning to smoke and floating away.
I became a faint wisp of a cloud.
I had always thought of myself as a solid entity.
And suddenly I saw that I am not solid at all.
I saw that the entity I had taken to be me was really a fabrication.
나와 세상과의 경계가 없어지는 순간..
명상을 하는 이유
"Am I happy?" she said.
"It's hard. I don't know if I'm happy."
And then I asked if she felt
if she felt satisfied
and she said, "Yes."
만해서 족한게 아니라, 그냥 족한것. 행복은 어려운 것
(정말 이 부분은 들으면 눈물남)
I have a doggy,
and this doggy died, and I was very sad,
so I don't know how to be not so sad.
...
This is a very difficult question.
Suppose, uh, you look, uh, into the sky
Look up into the sky and you see
a beautiful cloud.
And you like the cloud so much.
And suddenly the cloud is no longer there.
And you think that the cloud
has passed away.
Where is my beloved cloud now?
So if you have time to reflect,
to look,
you'll see that the cloud has not died,
has not passed away.
The cloud has become the rain.
And when you look at the rain,
you see your cloud.
And when you drink your tea mindfully,
you can see the rain in your tea
and your cloud in your tea.
And you can say, "Hello, my cloud."
I know you have not died.
"You are still alive in a new form."
So doggy is the same.
And if you look very deeply, you can see doggy
in its new form.
우리의 육신은 죽지만, 영혼은 살아서 다시 태어난다. 윤회.
나의 정신적 고통은 끝나지 않는다. 반복된다. 그러니 이번 생에서 바꾸려고 노력해보자.
