[Essay 6] First thing is first
As landing on Incheon international airport, South Korea, I felt a bit nervous, which was unexpected. I thought it would be full of happiness at least until end of October. But actually not and I don't even know why that feeling arouse. I am assuming that to give up priceless possessions and start over everything in Korea was pretty much a heavy burden to me. It's just ambivalence. Happy to come back home and gloomy to lay out total new financial calculations from where to live to what to buy.
First thing that I've done was to check my financial credits. Because before going abroad, I believed that I missed one payment, which was about $5 bill. Small amount but anyway it could affect my credit report critically. So I asked my father to pay off and he said,
"No worry, I will handle it. Just focus on your american life!"
Frankly, I should've worried and taken care of it by myself, not taking it over to him. Because even though he tried to pay off, he didn't know there was a late fee and a bunch of tax after missing the payment. I ended up figuring it out 3months before planning to come back to Korea. And now, the credit points that I looked last night indicated the lowest grade. From now on, no one will take care of anything that I'm supposed to deal with, since it's the worst to blame on or offend anyone for the reason.
Friends of mine told me that it's real good to join a housing-lottery to rent a place to live. Costs are very reasonable, as compared with normal average housing cost. Only 10~20% of the average cost is needed, which is a steal.
Also, what I was surprised was that the tax of alcohols, like wines, is 68%, which is extremely higher than any other contries, as far as I know. It meant that one of my favorite tastes has to be abandoned, although my gut is so hurt. At the same time, it's absolutely relieving that I've tasted all the wines that I was eager to taste in the States. There are pros and cons anywhere.
To move on in my hometown, making money to set out new Korean life is the most important step at this point. The fact that lowest credit points and no income are on me feels annoying and moreover, I checked if there's any debt that my father made while running the business under my name and noitced that I got chagred some tax. It is what it is. I feel like, this is my life, being on a spiky and shaky path. It's a little bit frustrating, as my father didn't tell me anything about those issues. However, it's okay. It happens. Life is born-natural crazy with being consist of unbelievable episodes in each individual life, and that's what I've gone through as well. Or maybe I'm trying to keep myself positive and produce an excuse to avoid deep down derpession that would possibly hurt either emotionally and mentally.
The things that I am facing miserably right now hopefully allow me to be strogner and harder in the future. Nothing can gaurantee our lives, but one certain thing is that people who are so called "successful figures" keep moving forawrd by overcoming all the hurdles and turbulant situations and eventaully, it results into a great achievement, like sunrise from darkness. It's just a common story that no one can deny.
