Good spell, bad spell

spell's already cast

Would I rather be feared or loved?
Um... Easy. Both! I want people to be afraid of how much they love me!

-Michael Scott-

Wish I could just shut you off while I get my head straight. I need me to stop having withdrawal symptoms. If I cannot help it, I need to face it like a hero. Time to be a hero then.

Feel, say and act. Know what I love and know what is good for me. Give thanks to who cares and care for those who I care about. Know who they are. Is it supposed to be easy? Never secondguess my worth. Do not compromise my dignity nor neglect the ones who stay by my side. Keep my chin up and hold my head high, as there is nothing worth losing myself for. Gracefully expect none yet shamelessly share love and gratitude.

I'm grateful for your being. Nothing more or less. I'm happy I feel how I feel. It did not come from you or anywhere else. It came from somewhere within me. Popped up like magic. Some unimaginable events turned me around to reveal the unknown side of me. It's new.

I choose love again. And I don't expect any better.