마태복음(Mat) 23장
23.03.23
23. 화 있을찐저 외식하는 서기관들과 바리새인들이여 너희가 박하와 회향과 근채의 십일조를 드리되 율법의 더 중한바 의와 인과 신은 버렸도다 그러나 이것도 행하고 저것도 버리지 말아야 할찌니라
23. “Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You give a tenth of your spices—mint, dill and cumin. But you have neglected the more important matters of the law—justice, mercy and faithfulness. You should have practiced the latter, without neglecting the former.
28. 이와 같이 너희도 겉으로는 사람에게 옳게 보이되 안으로는 외식과 불법이 가득하도다
28. In the same way, on the outside you appear to people as righteous but on the inside you are full of hypocrisy and wickedness.
What an insightful and direct message Jesus was announcing! If any pastor said like this to the audiences, almost all men should have gone out of the seats in anger and shame. However, sadly, I feel like He is telling the truth about the state of my mind, as I am not that eager to follow the law literally like the Jews at that time, neither am I righteous, merciful, and faithful.
Jesus said that you should have practiced the latter, without neglecting the former, which means both matters.
My husband said on Monday morning, that he would try to be a man of looking good and shiny, in Korean, 귀티나는 사람 and he would make his clothes clean and neat first as a U- tuber might suggested. I think it's desirable to care about appearances and wears, living in a society.
However, as Jesus said, we shouldn't be like the white-washed tombs, which look beautiful on the outside but in the inside are full of dead men's bones and everything unclean. In the same way, on the outside we appear righteous and honest, but on the inside (mind and hearts), we are full of hypocrisy and wickedness(27-28).
This morning, I feel guilty with this message because it is me, not the only Jews who murdered Jesus. I am one of the hypocrites who pretended to be good, merciful, and righteous on the outside, but inside of me are full of greed, judging, and pride and it overflowed and it has already started criticizing on others around me. It was my son who told me the truth yesterday. OMG.
Actually, it was a painful conversation and I shed tears playing the guitar last night, but it was not for true repentance, rather just comforting myself.
Father, I appreciate that You make me hear your voice through my son and make me feel Your touching my heart at this moment. I repent all of my sins that is deep in my heart, let me make it clean and neat as I do the spring cleaning, so that You could make use of me at the proper time at the right place. Change my heart, oh Lord, and make it ever true.
