A sociopath whom I met
I can’t say she was right sociopath but she had many traits for being sociopath, so I can say, yes, there are sociopath females out there.
When I was a teenager, in my class, one girl had kind of gender issue. Actually, when I was a student, there was such a word like gender kind thing, anyway, I will call it gender issue that I have many various opinions but for understanding, I will call it the gender issue.
Anyway, many girls liked her including me because she was so kind. At the same time, girls wondered why she acted and looked like a boy. So the sociopath female deceived and forced some girls including me to leave kind of sexual messages to her notes or bags and drawers. About men and women’s things. I felt some kind of guilty but I agreed somehow of the sociopath female’s argues, so I did once and very soon regret. That was some kind of sexual messages, so I felt humiliation even of me who made that I couldn’t even think about it until now. the sociopath female kept making rumors on and on behind that gender issued girl. I didn’t get involved more.
It sounds like an excuse, people tend to have interest toward different people. But the thing is the sociopath female noticed that way, made plans and let it not be. The sociopath female always made those kind of plans against people who were not her side. If one girl followed her directions once, she could keep secrets so she could easily handle that girl because that girl didn’t want to expose what the girl did. If you have one, others are easy.
Even now, I can’t understand why many girls followed her bad desire at that time, I can for sure she was always happy with this struggles. Finally, I could escape from her with kind of physical insisting.
Many girls liked the sociopath female. Because she was so funny. However, she used her attraction for making troubles among peoples without any specific reasons. If someone is lonely, she can have anger to people so she can make troubles, but she didn’t but she very liked troubles. I can understand her only in a position of sociopath.
저는 십 대 시절, 당시에는 친구였던 여성 중에 한 명이 소시오패스라고 확신하고 있는데, 그 친구는 굉장히 유쾌하고 재밌으며 주변에 항상 사람들이 많았습니다. 그리고 언제나 말썽거리들을 만들어와서 여러 사람들이 그 일을 함께 하도록 했죠. 그런 나쁜 짓들을 언제나 유쾌하게 만들어내는 것을 처음에는 멋모르고 따라 했지만, 결국 저는 그 친구와 물리적으로 다투고 관계를 끝냈습니다. 그 친구처럼 저도 많은 사람들과 잘 지내고 싶었고 당시에 저는 너무 외로워서 누구 하고나 친구가 되고 싶었거든요.
심지어 저는 남자애 같았던, 지금 생각하면 젠더 이슈가 있던 어떤 여자애에게 그 친구의 지시로 성적인 메시지를 몰래 숨겨놓기까지 했었습니다. 물론 저 말고도 그런 지시를 이런저런 각도로 이행하는 애들이 있었죠. 그러니까 대체 왜 그렇게 속수무책으로 그 친구의 그런 지시를 따랐을까, 지금 생각해도 참으로 이해되지 않습니다.
때문에 지금은 아무리 외롭다는 생각이 들어도 쉽게 친구를 만들지 않습니다. 그런 상태에서 누군과와 친해진다는 것이 얼마나 위험한지 저는 너무 일찍 깨달았거든요. 그리고 이단 종교 지도자들에게 속수무책으로 당하는 사람들을 일견 이해도 합니다.
여하간 그 친구는 결혼도 두 번이나 하고 애도 낳고 직장 생활하며 잘 살고 있는 듯한데, 성인이 돼서도 주변 사람들에게 지저분한 권유를 하는 버릇은 여전했던 모양인데, 지금은 어떨지 모르겠습니다.
