How do I have to live?
카지미르 말레비치(Казимир Северинович Малевич, 1879~1935) - <스포츠맨>(1929)What we should pursue? If there were absolutely correct answer for this question, anyone would feel pain because of life or one's existence. But there is no ulimative reason for your being. Even the reason why you feel pain does also. If you are very strong, you don't feel pain or sadness. But if you are weak, you feel much those emotion than stronger person. Life is sequence of pain and choice. Even you don't choose, it's your choice. Earning money or spending time is also your choice and staying home all day with doing nothing is your choice too. As I said ealier, there is no ultimate essence or correct answer for choice. Everything is just relatively being. We are given our essence when we belong some structure or society.
A boy is a son of his parents and he is student at the school. And he is brother to his sibiling. When he grows up and become adult, he will be given another essence of being. Like this, the essence of life or being is not permanent. It's fluent not solid.
But we need to find or build our own essence for being. We need to have axis to live in this murky world. Discussion is inundated, and false news is rampant. The world which goes relatively not consistenly doesn't give you answer or what to do. The only what you can believe soundly is only yourself. While one being is just a small point in the world, it is the center of its world. However that being don't know that it's the center of its world. It just pursue or be blind in other's faith. So they think and 'being' without own thougth and philosophy. Eventually, they can't think and choose without others opinion and the structure they belonged.
Person belong to the world he live. For example, society, industry, art, scholarship and religion etc. So they can't resist easily the discourse already made or people believe and admitted. Therefore it becomes like ulimate truth because many people admit and believe. Because of these reasons, we can't live without money as we live in capitalism society. So we pursue more valuable thing and struggle to earn more money. But it's not clear that it's our own desire. These desire or ambition is also made by the structure we belong.
So what should we desire and pursue in life? Becasue we can't live without other people or belonging in society, we couldn't live with no desire made by others or people have power.
Person has not only outside but also inside. But we don't care inside and just decorate our outside. So our inside is empty and we are hollow. Because we are hollow, we pursue only material stimulus. It brings immediatly happiness and performance so people are addicted these. But someday they know that there is a hole which can't not full with material things.
So what do I have to live? How to live in this complicate world? First, I think I need to find myself and develop it. Now I don't know what I wanna do and How do I want to live.
