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The Prayer
I remember that day, Lord, that You havepulled me out of my shells, broke it to million pieces, gave me a torch andforced me out of my hidings. I remember those times when I was tempted andfailed, and I was scared and nervous in front of You, and You always helped me.I remember Your strength, that completes when I let everything go, when I am trulyweak, that You are strong. I remember when I was down, so low and dark that noone was able to reach me, your hand came down and pulled me right through. WhenI thought there were no one beside me, you sent people along with yourself toheal me and support me.
You were there, always.
Knowing all this, I am still scared. The newsetting I will be in, the people, the environment, the church and the school,the unfamiliar house and awkward town, I’m not so sure how well I will handleit. I’ve grown way too familiar with the people you sent me and place you sentme. I am scared to move out of another shell I have created around me, yet youtell me to get out of it. Every time I try to hide, you tell me no. Every time Itry to get comfortable, you tell me no. You know me way to well.
I don’t know how comfortable I could bewhen I sing to You, You know I can’t sing if I have people around me. But youalso know that I would rather be embarrassed than not sing to You. You know I amnot very social person, but you know that I would not just stand and see. You knowI am not a bold person, but you know I would rather die than not telling aboutthe truth.
You have changed me, way too much.
It’s bitter, Lord, you have given me enoughwisdom to make me see the “what if”s and “maybe”s. The Voldmort whispers everyday, disobey your Lord and you can get anything, but I have not yet lost to thevoice. Give me strength, your sustaining strength so that I can continuouslyignore the foolish voice.
You have no “What if”s, you have no “maybe”s.You have no “perhaps”, you have no “potentially”. It’s either do or not do, andI, again, will follow you.
So Lord, give me strength, protect myheart, guard my soul, and take away my worries. You are my shepherd, and I shallnot want. You restore my soul, and you lead me in the paths of righteousnessfor your name’s sake. Though I walk through the valley of death, I will fear noevil: for you are with me; your rod and your staff comforts me.
Amen.