"Remember Me This Way"
내가 좋아하는 노래들
삶이 꿈을 빼앗는 경우가 아마도 대부분일 듯 합니다. 젊어서는 미래에 내가 어떻게 되고 싶다는 상상과 꿈을 가지고 먼 장래의 계획을 세웁니다. 하지만 어리고 현명하지 못한 까닭에, 아니면 주변 환경에 휩쓸려서 많은 날들을 즐기며 망각속에서 허비하고 때로는 올바른 판단이었다고 생각한 선택이 결국은 잘못된 것이었음을 알게 되어 결국 많은 시간을 손을 쓸 수도 없이 버리게 되지요.
Les Miserables 에서 Cosette 의 어머니인 Fantine 도 아마 이렇게 삶을 살았었겠지요? 그녀의 노래에서도 읽을 수 있듯이 "신"께서 날 용서하시리라 생각했었지요. 난 젊었고 두려울 것이 없었기에, 꿈을 꾸고, 써버리고, 낭비했습니다. 죄값을 치를 필요도 없었으며, 안 부른 노래가 없었고, 맛보지 않은 와인도 없었지요."
*아마도 Fantine 은 Protestant 가 아닌 Roman Catholic 이었겠지요. 따라서 '신'이라 지칭하겠습니다.
안타까운 삶이 되어버렸습니다. 이 노래를 Ruthie Henshall 의 version 으로 올려봅니다 - I Dreamed A Dream (Les Miserables 10th Anniversary Concert - Royal Albert Hall)
There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong
I dreamed a dream in times gone by
When hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed, that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted
But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
As they turn your dream to shame
He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came
And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather
I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream
I dreamed
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-p6OH7FoWoQ
반면에 유사한 느낌의 노래가 하나 있습니다. "Casper (1995)" 에서 나오는 노래인데, Jordan Hill 이 부른 "Remember Me This Way"입니다. 과거에 대한 가사가 포함되었는데, 참 따스합니다: "너같이 착한 마음을 가진 아이에게 삶이 다정하길 바라며 너를 위해 소원을 빌어줄께 - I'll make a wish for you, and hope it will come true that life would just be kind to such a gentle mind. nnnn이 영화에서 나온 여자아이 배우는 예전에 올려드린 "The Man Who Cried (2000)" 에도 출연한 Christina Ricci 입니다. 매우 독특하게 생긴 배우였지요. Mermaids (1990 film) 라는 영화에서는 더 어린 나이였을 때 출연했었습니다.
Every now and then
We find a special friend
Who never lets us down
Who understands it all
Reaches out each time you fall
You're the best friend that I've found
I know you can't stay
A part of you will never ever go away
Your heart will stay
I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life would just be kind
To such a gentle mind
If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VgkcPCOXLCk
My life has been kind to me, although I was young and stupid. I exchanged my dreams with greed, and wasted most of them in the course of life. However, God was forgiving most of time, and I am reminded by the fact that He paid my ransoms. Now I have been walking on thin ice, feeling afraid that I may find myself foolish again in the middle of night. So I take one step at a time, while I strive for my unfulfilled dreams.
- End
