상간녀
혼인 관계에 있는 사람과 부정행위를 한 여성
남편과 TV를 보는 중에 화면에서 첫사랑 이야기가 나왔다.
'남자의 첫사랑은 어쩌고 저쩌고..'
흔히 알고 있는 그 불편한 존재 같은 뻔한 이야기.
그래서 남편에게 남자한테 첫사랑은 정말 저러냐고 물었을 때
그 사람은 코웃음 치며 말했다.
첫사랑을 다시 만나본 사람은 그런 말 안 나온다고.
본인은 다시 만나보니 아니란 걸 알았다고 했다.
처음에는 마치 내가 원하는 정답을 말한다고 생각했으나,
헤어진 이유를 들었을 때 더 이상의 질문은 사라지고
대화는 평화롭게 마무리되었다.
그 여자는 사귀는 중에 몰래 호빠(호스트바)에 갔고
남친이었던 남편이 뒤늦게 알게 되어 헤어졌다고 말했다.
형편없다.
남편은 고개를 절레절레 흔들며 이야기를 하면서
오만정이 떨어진 듯 이야기를 담담히 전했다.
예쁜 추억으로 자리 잡았을 순수한 사랑 이야기인 줄 알았더니만.
그래서 그 이름을 기억하고 있었다.
똑똑하다고 생각했던 내 남편이
그런 여자랑 또다시 만남이란 걸 생각하고
외도라는 것을 저지를 줄이야.
너나 그 년이나.
While my husband and I were watching TV, a story about first loves came up on the screen.
"The man's first love is something, something..."
It was the same old, uncomfortable cliché we all know.
So I asked him, "Is it really like that for a man’s first love?"
He scoffed and replied, "Anyone who's ever met their first love again knows that
doesn’t hold true."
He said that after meeting her again, he realized it wasn’t what he had imagined.
At first, I thought he was saying what I wanted to hear, but when I heard the reason they broke up, I couldn’t ask any more questions. The conversation quietly came to an end.
He told me that she had secretly gone to a host bar while they were dating,
and when he found out, they broke up.
Pathetic.
As he shook his head, telling the story, it seemed as if all his affection had drained away.
He spoke calmly, as if recounting something that no longer mattered.
What I thought was a pure love story that had become a beautiful memory turned out to be something else entirely.
And that’s why I remembered her name.
I had thought my husband was smart.
The fact that he could meet someone like her again,
and even cheat on me with her,
was beyond my comprehension.
There’s no difference between you and that bitch.
