10.20.19

미국에서

Tolerance

I can’t handle my any situations, such as ability, love and money even though I am doing much effort. Just accept given things to me or keep trying against my destiny. I know no one knows whether is gonna be worth it. Let’s change the question. When should I have to stop? My brain is warning me that I have to stop action right now, but my mind doesn’t listen it. Which one is my opinion? Reason or sensibility. Defensive realism or naive romanticism. I used to be usually the latter person strongly, but...you know. Sad memory makes me being a chicken more and more. Being adult means not only knowing about me much more than young, but also pileing my failing experiance. And I am facing my one more freaking memory. Today, I will be naive again, believing my romantic heart. I might be still a unmature person. I hope my coward girl inside me will cover a good result. Good luck me :)